Day 4

Today started out well, but i felt a tiny bit guilty for having that Turkey pastrami sandwich at 9pm...even though it was just half, I made up for that other half by dipping it into ranch dressing.

Ranch dressing just happens to be my weakness. I quit ranch cold turkey about 8 months ago, and i didn't really miss it, but then my son went on this kick where he had to dip everything, i mean EVERYTHING in ranch. This child would dip a hamburger, a hot dog, even Mac n cheese. We went to burger king and he asked me to get him ranch for his cheeseburger, we got home and i dipped ONE french fry in the ranch and the addiction began, yet again. So i fight with that demon regularly. i tried light ranch and it is just gross. So i feel like i take a step backward when i have it, but it is just like Heaven in my mouth.

I took the kids to school and on the way home i was arguing with myself. I could just take a say off i say, then the argument began. No you cant take a day off, i tell my lazy self. Just do it! then little lazy says " yea but you are in pain, there is no sense in hurting yourself" Motivator me says "but you have this goal and you want to accomplish it. Just do it don't be a puss." this argument went on until about 1030, when lazy just gave up, because it was just too lazy to continue arguing. Motivator me won. and i am really glad. i needed to do it.

I have a goal and that goal will not be accomplished is i puss out, and let lazy win. That is how i got into this situation to begin with, right!?!?

So through the DVD i am sweating and panting and drinking lots of water, and then i come to the STUPID "plank jacks". they are HELL and to be honest it kinda hurts my lower back, so i opted out of them. instead i just did regular jumping jacks. for the most part i do the advanced version of the moves, but there a few things that irritate my hips, so i do the beginner version. I was sweating my ass off, quite literally hopefully... But at this point i think i might DIE if i get to level 3 LMAO. But i am just going to take it one day at a time and i will get where i want to be.

Wish me luck, and pray that little lazy gets her ass out of my life!